Sunday, March 1, 2009
And the Pain Comes Back With Vengance
Let's face it folks: Love wasn't meant to be convenient.
Over the past few weeks, an old problem that I thought was resolved resurfaced and slowly drained as much energy from me as it could before I finally faced it today.
Being all smiles is what I do best, even during hard times. But today the smile came off and I just sat down and cried. Why did this have to come back? Just when I felt like I was strong again, the past came and ripped every defense I had to bits. I don't need to be in love...but it would be nice to have someone to talk to...but I don't want to spread my horrible mood....so why the heck am I blogging this?
Well no one really reads it anyway. Meh. Sigh* There's something therapeutic about writing/typing everything out of my head so I can just let it go for now and focus on more important things than myself. People need me. Don't have time to worry about "I". My pain's pretty trivial. I mean there's always someone who's hurting more, right?
Anyway...should be doing homework so I'll go get on that.
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1 comment:
I read this.
It is true, maybe, that other people are feeling more pain or children are starving in China or whatever- but you cannot serve anyone if you do not take care of yourself first.
Love your neighbor as YOURSELF, remember? You have to take care of you too.
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